I do not know what the future will bring, but I know it is a future worth fighting for.
I do not know if I will always be sick, but I know healing is something worth pursuing.
I do not know if the majority of my life will incessantly consist of the same four walls, but I know the moments spent within them are somehow worth cherishing.
I do not know if there will always be a crushing amount of darkness lingering in some part of my life, but I know the moments of light, no matter how brief, render all darkness worth it.
I do not know if there is a deep part of me that will always feel alone, but I know it is a part of myself worth exploring, so that it may be alone without being lonely.
I do not know if anyone will ever or can ever fully understand me, or if they are even supposed to, but I know striving to understand others is a priority worth making.
But most of all…
I do not know if I will ever reach my dreams, and sometimes I entirely forget what they are, but the kid in me knows dreaming is not only worth it, but, more importantly, it is essential for a fully inhabited and passionate life; because in the end, I know it will not matter if my dreams come true, or how often I changed them.
What will matter is that I did in fact dare to dream and that I took irrational risks at the expense of staying true to myself; because I knew ignoring my heart would be a far greater risk than venturing into the indecipherable unknown, as it would imprint hauntingly permanent consequences within.
Mostly, though, dreams matter because I matter, you matter, we all matter; and dreams are the only fuel that possesses the potential to propel us out of the stagnant waters of a life that often feels meaningless, as years of enduring the unendurable pass by in a blur of grotesque familiarity.
As long as we dream, we continue to grow, to learn, to pursue what gives light to the furthest depths of our souls, and to live for something that -regardless how trivial others may find it to be- illuminates our spirits and ragingly burns with ferocious, unworldly passion inside.
And it is because of the radiating power within those courageous enough to not only dream, but to unhesitatingly plow through fear’s prison gates and take action as well, that I must once again stress the profoundly beautiful truth that lies under the layers of bone crushing pain and heart wrenching deception at the core of all who continue to open their eyes with each sunrise, ready to battle the unrelenting tsunami of their soul, better known as Lyme disease:
I do not know what the future will bring, but I know it is a future worth fighting for