I found this in an old journal, written close to a year ago in the thick of the aftermath of having the health I fought so hard to reclaim stripped away. - - - - Relapse from Lyme disease was dismal, a repugnant and vile defeat. Even worse, it wasn't real. The reality I was wading … Continue reading Nothing is What it Seems, When Your Worst Nightmares Become your Dreams
In regards to tragedy, we too often think “that happens to other people, not me.” This is an absolutely understandable, yet nonetheless naively ignorant, comfort mechanism. Still, it does not stop there. Most of us also, although we are not likely to admit it, held an illusionary image of the self we would be if … Continue reading The Role Preconceived Notions Play in the Healing Process
When a negative feeling arises, use it. Keep it. Feel it. Become it. Inhale it. Feel it in your heart, lungs, and veins. Tweet Navigating your way through the haze of chronic Lyme disease is a feeling which words do not exist for. You cannot imagine it or describe it, only experience it. It's as … Continue reading Negative Emotions: What Do We Do with Them? How Do We Get through the Hours of Excruciating Pain and Darkness?
After the initial hurt of breaking up with a romantic partner, we have an almost instinctual tendency to remember all of the bad times about the relationship rather than the good ones. Oddly, on the other hand, when illness forces us to break up with the familiarity of our old lives, we have an almost … Continue reading Nostalgia’s Role in Chronic Illness
Sometimes, I wake up and realize that as time slips away, my spirit only seems to follow. In those moments, I find that I miss myself. I yearn to feel deeply again, rather than to feel the numbness from die-off signaling a waking death. I quite forget myself, that the "I" that misses myself is … Continue reading Lyme: When the Good and Bad Collide