Life After Lyme When A Co-Infection Gives You PANS/PANDAS : Being An Adult With PANS, No Longer Pretending You Are Perfect Out Of Fear of People Thinking You Are Crazy , & Becoming Comfortable Being Uncomfortable

 HEADS UP: This is completely unedited and taken from my personal journal and was **WRITTEN AWHILE BACK**. Nonetheless, the fundamental message still rings true. Although I am not as deep in the dark waters of “PANS”, I am still wading my way through —often aimlessly— the murky waters of PANS, relentlessly searching for the shore on the other side that too often seems entirely out of sight. At the time of writing this, I was unsure if I would show it to anyone or post it anywhere, but in the end decided to and also decided that refusing to edit … Continue reading Life After Lyme When A Co-Infection Gives You PANS/PANDAS : Being An Adult With PANS, No Longer Pretending You Are Perfect Out Of Fear of People Thinking You Are Crazy , & Becoming Comfortable Being Uncomfortable

You Want to Try Cannabis for Lyme, but Are Hesitant Because It Gives You Anxiety -and Rightfully So…

Growing up, I strongly detested recreational use of marijuana because, simply put, it made me freak out. For the life of me, I could not comprehend how people enjoyed being under its influence, as it had proven an awful experience for me. I would get massive anxiety, paranoia, and leg twitching. Of course, my paranoia only amplified the twitching and thus the anxiety, because I would dwell on whether or not those around me noticed the twitching. Turns out, while many do experience anxiety from certain strains of cannabis, their high is entirely different than the one I experienced and … Continue reading You Want to Try Cannabis for Lyme, but Are Hesitant Because It Gives You Anxiety -and Rightfully So…

For the Young, Sick, and Brave

Regardless of how bizarre our rapidly changing dreams were growing up, one factor was most likely present in most: The visions of our futures most definitely did not include a life-changing illness, becoming debilitated at a time when our young peers are running marathons, being imprisoned during the years we somewhat ignorantly believed we were promised –and entitled to- freedom, falling completely dependent upon loved ones and caretakers at an age meant for independence, spending years in isolation during the very same years we once believed would be used for travel and exploration, losing ourselves the minute society taught us … Continue reading For the Young, Sick, and Brave

Chlorella: A Natural Alternative to Cholestyramine

A few months ago, I began taking Cholestyramine   Initially, promising results manifested, clearing up my daily dreaded evening brain fog. As time went on, though, I came to equally dread taking it along with the two hours after doing so, because it put me in an incredible about of pain. The LLMD who prescribed it to me said, “your body will get used to it.” So, I pushed on, convinced I was being strong and braving the pain in order to heal. On the contrary, though, my health suddenly started to rapidly decline and I became much sicker. What … Continue reading Chlorella: A Natural Alternative to Cholestyramine